I could be better, should be better.

"Look in a mirror and find a ghost. Hear every heartbeat scream that everysinglething is wrong with you. 'Why?' is the wrong question. Ask 'Why not?'"

Erin. Seventeen. Eating Disordered. Vegan. Chainsmoker. Singer. Reader/(Bad)Writer. Stoner.
I've been diagnosed with a plethora of psychological disorders by many ~~idiots/extortionists/assholes~~ doctors/therapists/psychiatrists. I like to flush the pretty pills that are supposed to make me less neurotic down the toilet, because being crazy is more interesting than being numb.

H: 5'7"
HW: 150 (BMI 23.5)
LW: 97 (15.2)
CW: 122 (19.1)
SW: 130 (20.4)
GW1: ~~123 (19.3)~~
GW2: 116 (18.2)
GW3: 109 (17.1)
GW4: 102 (16)
UGW: 90.5 (14.2)

~ Thursday, November 10 ~

My friends make me want to hit things.

Donedonedonedonesofuckingdonerightnow.

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~ Monday, October 31 ~

My lips are dry and everyone told me how good I looked on Saturday and my head hurts and I don’t believe them and I’m taking too much Adderall and I can’t stop binging and purging and starving and I just want this all to go away. Everything is too much right now and compliments make me hate myself more and I need to make this all go away. I wish I knew how.

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~ Thursday, October 27 ~

Attempt not to b/p last night: unsuccessful

I fail at being a normal person. My cheeks are swollen, my throat hurts, and my ass is fat.
Booooooooo.

Tags: everythingelseisfattoo
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~ Wednesday, October 26 ~

Ingested two hardboiled egg whites (35), Greek yogurt (140), and an Adderall (awesome) today. Hopefully no binging and purging tonight, because I usually have to fast to avoid that. May purge the egg whites to put my mind more at ease though. FuckIdon’tknow.

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~ Tuesday, October 25 ~

I’ve always heard people make jokes about how guys poke girls on Facebook when they really want to poke the girl with their dick, but I didn’t think it was actually true…

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